Cycle One ~ May 1-Aug 7
At the end of April 2010 we decided to ditch the birth control pills in an attempt to get my cycles back in order after 16 years on Loestrin. I was nervous about what the pills could have done to my natural hormone balance. I had aunt flo(AF) on May 1st. I had heard that it can take awhile to get back to regular. Well, a very long wait of 99 days finally came to an end on August 8th. I had my first natural cycle. I was excited just to know my body was getting back on track.Cycle Two ~ Aug 8 -Sept 11
I needed to determine if I was ovulating. I bought an ovulation predictor kit(OPK) to check the LH levels in my system and waited for day ten, like the instructions said to do. In the meantime, we left for our honeymoon in Europe. I tried to keep up testing with the OPKs each morning. After about a week of negatives I stopped testing, thinking we could try again next month as I must've missed the mark, or I wasn't ovulating yet. We enjoyed the rest of our trip and tried not to worry about cycles, babies or ovulation. Near the end of our trip, in Austria I got a very bad
UTI. My cycle began in the middle of that same night. It was 35 days long.
Cycle Three ~ Sept 12 - ??
Cycle three began on September 12th. I tested again with the OPKs and received negative day after day. Until on October 3rd I saw a second line! It did not match the control line but I was quite happy to see it anyway. Sorry the photo is a bit blurry. The control line is on the right and the positive LH line is on the left.
We were so happy and took it to mean that I was going to ovulate this cycle. I re-tested again on October 4th and got another positive LH reading. The line was a bit darker this time. The control line is on the right and the positive LH line is on the left. It was a great couple of days.
Guessing by my previous cycle of 35 days I took it to mean that my next cycle should begin on October 17th, or if it were late, maybe October 19th. October 17th is DH's birthday and we thought it would be quite fun to test on his birthday and maybe get a positive. So we decided to take a First Response Early Response(FRER) home pregnancy test(HPT) early in the morning and waited the three whole long minutes... for a faint light pink second line.
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| BFP! |
I retook the same FRER test early the next morning, October 18th for the exact same result, a faint pink second line. I called my doctors office and made an appointment for a week away(October 26th) hoping that by then the hCG levels will be strong and we will get some great news. I still could not believe it so on the morning of October 19th I took a First Response Digital test and it also came back positive. The tests from what I've read can detect 20mIU and are the most sensitive available. The digitals are much easier to read, and much more fulfilling I have to say!
At this point we think that we might actually have our dreams come true and be pregnant with our first baby. On my walk home from the bus that same evening, I had the not so brilliant idea to stop into my local doctors office to have them confirm my findings. I had just went to the bathroom an hour prior, when leaving the office, and could barely get anything into the cup for them to test. Then they proceeded to tell me that the test was negative. Sigh. I went home sad, worried and confused. I realized that the nurse could've made a mistake, or that there may not have been enough hCG in my system to get a positive. I'm hoping that it's too early to get a strong result.
This morning, October 20th, I took a third FRER(same as the first two) and it had a very faint pink line as well. Now I'm second guessing myself and wondering whats going on. Am I really pregnant? I'm also wondering if the line should be getting darker, because it hasn't, and I hope that is not a bad sign. AF has not arrived and I am on pins and needles waiting for either a confirmed positive (yay!) or a sad, sad day if AF does start.
DH says that no matter what we will get our baby. Either now or in the future. He stays so calm. I wish I could be so calm. I know that worrying doesn't help anything, but it's easier said than done to stop. Only time will tell I guess. Now the long wait until next Tuesday begins...
